| ...you better watch out....you better not cry... |
[Dec. 7th, 2005|07:51 pm] |
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| |  okay | ] |
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| | I'll Cover You (1000 kisses)_|_Rent (the movie) | ] |
Hmmm...i forgot how much i love my livejournal...i've definitely slacked off with updates in a serious way....
so ummm...update...the semester is nearly over....finals are next week...and i CAN'T WAIT TO GO HOME!! i miss home a lot...PLUS...i'm just ready to get the HELL out of here...for real...i'm so burned out...and next semester is gonna be FIERCE!! check this...i'm taking 18 hours...bio 1, physics 2, organic chem 2, organic lab (1 hour lecture + a 5 hour lab!!!!!), spanish 202, and development 205...and on top of that...i'll be shadowing in obstetrics on tuesdays from like 1 to 4...or somethin like that...blaaahhh...
i would have only been taking 15 hours....buuuut...i ended up dropping my biology class this semester...b/c i was doing so badly...so i have to pick it up in the spring...which is really gonna suck...but...i can do it...i just have to pay a-fucking-ttention to my school work....prioritize...and whatnot....right?
so uhhh....i guess i don't have much else to say...sooo....the end? |
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[Dec. 4th, 2005|06:01 pm] |
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| | cheerful | ] |
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| | 'facebook livin'_|_Nsami | ] |
I'm so happy right now....because....
*11/27 was an interesting day
*20 is a good number :-D
*RENT is an awesome movie
*http://www.soundclick.com/bands/pagemusic.cfm?bandID=426530
*i just ate a cinnamon raisin bagel
*i'm goin home in less than 2 weeks
*it's sunday...which means dinner at 8 with all my friends
*i have hot new pics on my myspace
*my new myspace layout makes me happy
one drawback.....it's not official yet....
oh...uhhh...leave me a comment... |
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[Nov. 22nd, 2005|10:21 am] |
| [ | Though no one can see |
| |  dorky | ] |
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| | I Love You Cuz I Have To_|_Dogs Die in Hot Cars | ] |
we got a new puppy!! Mom and Chum surprised me with her...sat me down on the couch and told me to close my eyes....next thing i know there's this TINY little pup just like....climbing on my face...haha it was awesome...
her name is Sassafrass (to match with Ginger and Koko) but it's Sassy or Sass for short...:-D
( SASSY!! ) |
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| secrets and lies |
[Nov. 11th, 2005|08:59 pm] |
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| |  apathetic | ] |
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| | Can you feel the love tonight_|_Lion King (Elton) | ] |
i think it's so cute that you never knew....i've been lying to you since the day we met.... |
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| Happy Birthday to Me |
[Oct. 23rd, 2005|08:23 pm] |
| [ | Though no one can see |
| |  i'm doin pretty good... | ] |
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| | The Last Thing_|_Diana Anaid | ] |
this.....weekend.....was.....AWESOME!
friday afternoon ben came into town...we spent the early afternoon here...while i finished cleaning...and then we went to grab some food...after that we went over to Jaron's house to watch DEGRASSI!!! and so Jaron could do my homework...a few hours later we come back to my apt....walk in the door.....( SURPRISE!! ) it was a birthday party for me!!! it was SUCH a surprise!!! they totally fooled me i had NO idea....but it was sooo fun...afterward we went over to Riverside West and had a "party" in one of the guys' rooms...drinkin and whatnot...i got a good buzz...haha and it only took 3 beers...i was like....damn...that's shitty...haha...i did chug the last one tho...so maybe that was it...dunno...after that last beer i decided i was tired so me and ben headed back to my room....which was good...b/c a little while later the cops showed up...and everyone got written up....not cool...haha...blah...so that was friday...
saturday was the ( FOOTBALL GAME!!! ) which was AWESOME!! Granted...the Tide was not playin as well as they could have/should have....buuuuut...a win is a win fuckers! ohhh...and on the way to breakfast beforehand...we saw the most amazing ( car ) ever...hahaha...yeah...so we got to the stadium way early...like before the gates had even opened...so we got really awesome seats...it was a great day...so much fun...and Alabama is 7-0!!! hahaha...which is MORE than anyone can say for Auburn this year...hahaha...after the game we got some grub...and then we all went back home...me and ellie spent the next few hours being absolute idiots....haha and laughing up a storm...ben thought we were crazy i'm sure...haha...
the best part of saturday night came at about 2:15...so sunday morning actually....when josh mutha fuckin prieto called me...to say happy birthday...hahaha...it was awesome...phone rings...it's him...he does his happy bday thing...and then proceeds to give the phone to like...every person he could find that knew me (he was at a party i guess)...and is like...it's Janessa...tell her happy birthday.....haha it was awesome...i felt loved...lol...that lasted a good while...got to talk to a lot of ppl...some that i didn't even know...haha...i definitely went to bed with a smile...lol...
*thanks pablo...i love you a shitload shithead...
today is my actually "birthday"...and i got tons of phonecalls....many many facebook messages...and changes to my wall...lots of cards...some gifts...which i'll post about later....overall...i'd say it was a good day...=)
8:58pm EDIT: well...it was...i just got in an online argument with my mom....who sometimes insists on being a bitch...
( Is it too much to expect a phone call?? )
9:18 pm EDIT: daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaamn......AND i just got in an online argument with Jaron....apparently i'm being a birthday brat?? except that i don't understand when i've hardly even like...talked to him today...jesus...what the HELL am i doing wrong here??? |
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[Oct. 13th, 2005|12:16 pm] |
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| |  this fucking sucks | ] |
so here i am once again...to update on my extremely boring life...
Things have been pretty crazy lately...school is beatin the shit outta me...i wish there was a battered student shelter....i'd soooo be there....ha....lots of meetings...lots of homework...lots of bad grades...i'm just not feelin the college scene nemore...
I've been tryin to get my shit together...it's not goin so well
I started shadowing today....that's the thing i was talkin about...where you go to the Univ. Med. Center and follow around one of the docs...it was quite boring to say the least...i was there from 9 to 12...and i only got to see 3 patients...one of whom i was asked to step out of the room towards the end...personal things i suppose...the resident they assigned me to for today forgot about me at one point...so i sat in the "conference room" or w/e...for like....ever...talkin to the attending...he was a nice guy...but he was one of those..."i crack alot of jokes...i tease you...but you never know that i'm teasing until i say so..." kinda guys...older...retired actually...just comes in to help....but i did learn alot...about random shit...
i think i have to come home this weekend....but i really don't want to....i know that sounds bad...but i just don't want to drive all that way to just stay for a weekend...and my brother is coming into town...so i'll prolly have to hang with him alot...and i doubt i'll get to see anybody so i mean...it just seems like a waste of my time...and it makes it even worse because mom originally was like...yeah we're gonna come up to see you...and now she's backin out of it....we dont' wanna have to miss work...we want jeff to be able to spend time with the kids...blah blah blah...it's bullshit....but i felt obligated to tell mom that i would come home...so it hasn't been decided for sure yet...but now i'm pissed off...
I just wish this month was over...i don't even care...i'm just so tired of being pulled in so many directions...and i don't know how to deal with it anymore.... |
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| who am i to compare my pain to yours? |
[Oct. 4th, 2005|03:27 am] |
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| |  ouch | ] |
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| | Who Am I_|_Plumb | ] |
so my brow ring is like...so way infected...my brow is so swollen and red and "OW!" bah...i'm not sure why it's infected...i haven't done nethin to it...it just started to hurt today...oh well...i've actually been thinking about taking them out...and also about letting my lobes retract...i don't know...i mean...i still really like them...but...it won't be too long until it's gonna be a bad idea to have them...in a lil over a week i start shadowing a doctor at the University Med Center...it's only once a week...for like...a month or so...but...it'll be a good experience...and i don't wanna be looked down upon b/c of my piercings...luckily for me they aren't like...horribly intimidating piercings...haha...not like the antibrows i liked so much...but yeah neway...i mean...in the next few years i'm gonna be tryin to get into medical school and whatnot...and...yeah...which....i knew when i got them i wouldn't be keepin 'em forever...if they tell me i have to take them out to shadow...i'll be upset for sure....but i think i'll do it...i mean...*lifts hands in scale-type manner* metal in my face...chance to expand my resume...metal in my face...chance to expand my resume....*moves hands up and down*...yeah...you see where i'm goin with this... |
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| I know this hurts...it was meant to.... |
[Oct. 3rd, 2005|07:12 am] |
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| |  in so much pain | ] |
I woke up early this morning....with a tremendous earache....an ache which has now completely taken over the dark recess that is my ear canal....and that has spread not only to my head...but my throat as well...and is threatening to make me nauseated....i'm in some real pain here boys and girls...it's times like this that i wish i were back home...mom would know what to do....she always does...and she'd tell me to run up to the office real quick and let Dr. Cosper take a look...and then she'd give me whatever medicine was deamed necessary...ouch...someone save me...please.... |
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| blame it on the boogie... |
[Sep. 26th, 2005|06:57 am] |
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| |  tired | ] |
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| | It's quiet...seven in the mornin'll do that for ya... | ] |
I tried to study this weekend...to really take advantage of the time to do homework...to review notes...and all that other good shit....but....it just didn't quite happen...I wish this week was over already...
( all i know...is that i'm DAMN glad i decided to drop American Lit... )
blah...oh well...it's off to take a shower i go...leave me somethin...if you so please... |
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| druken suitemates rock my world |
[Sep. 24th, 2005|04:50 pm] |
| [ | Though no one can see |
| | amused | ] |
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| | P.Y.T. (Pretty Young Thing)_|_Michael Jackson | ] |
"I want to love you...(P.Y.T.)...pretty young thang...you need some lovin...(T.L.C)..."
I fuckin love michael jackson....i'm on such a michael kick lately it's ridiculous...
So how bout...last night was the most fun i've had all week...hahaha....it started with a nap....moved on to an overflowed toliet...and ended with a floor covered in vomit....hahaha....oh yeah...it was great...
one of my suitemates got really drunk lastnight and we were all cuttin up and actin a fool...havin a really good time...and then at about one my friend sarah called for me to pick her up from work...so i took my two suitemates with me....so that i could help the one keep an eye on the other....haha...it was sooo fun...we were blasting daddy yankee dancing and singin and carryin on...and then we got sarah and i had to get gas...so we pulled into the gas station...next to these two guys...and we were playin lo que paso paso....and they were like...talkin game and shit
hahah...so then we left there...and went to taco bell....AND WE DIDN'T GET KICKED OUT LIKE LAST WEEKEND....hahaha...which was good....my druken suitemate was HILARIOUS...she was being sooo funny...sayin such crazy shit...and then like...we got back to the dorms and went to go in the elevator...and these two random girls who had come in before us were goin down the hall and then saw us and were like "DON'T PUT HER IN THE ELEVATOR!!"...they were like "if you put her in there she's gonna throw up...we know....cuz it's happened to us before" and i looked at them and i was like..."for one she can't make it up four flights of stairs...and for two...i've been up MANY an elevator drunk off my ass...and i've never once puked in one...soo...yeah"...and they got all pissy...and my suitemate was bein bold cuz she was drunk...haha...and she's standing in the elevator and starts yellin out "maaaaaannn...they don't know shit about the damn elevator....they live on the FIRST floor..." hahaha...it was funny...hmm...maybe you had to be there...
So then we got back up to the room and the drunkard got sick....all over the floor...so i had to scrub vomit off her carpet...and wash her clothes and bedsheets and shit...but it was all good...i love her...hahaha...and i watch out for the people i love...=)
Let's see what else...ohhh...the night was also really good because Pablo called me a bunch...and that was nice...i miss him...and sometimes i don't realize how much until i talk to him or w/e....so yeah...that was great...he was bein a retard as always...he called me at like 4 am...right when i was about to go to sleep...haha...and we talked till like quarter to six maybe? and by then i was like well...the laundry i did should be dry by now...so i went and got that...dicked around on the computer....and got to bed by like...6:30...woke up at 9:30...confirm with the sober-mate that we weren't gonna go to the game...and fell back asleep until 2...
Watched the last quarter of the game...it was close for a min there...but then that beautiful touchdown at the end...hahaha...there was NO ONE there from Arkansas to even TRY to intercept the throw...haha...nice...so now bama is 4-0!!!! and i'm sooooooooooo proud...ROLL TIDE ROLL!!!! haha...
After the game i had to take sarah to work...so we battled traffic for like...almost 45 mins...just to go five miles down the road...it was ridiculous...but we got her there...and a half an hour early at that...and it only took me a few extra mins than usual to get back here...so that was good...and now i'm just chillin...
Gonna have to start back studyin again soon....i have FOUR tests next week...
Tuesday: My first Organic Chemistry test
Wednesday: My first Biology Lab test
Thursday: My first Spanish test
Friday: My first physics test
*sigh* it's gonna be the week from hell...no lie...
neway...leave 'em...ohhh...and for your giggling pleasure:
( the Ross-man...such a goofball ) |
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| ...when we played tag in grade school....you wanted to be it... |
[Sep. 17th, 2005|02:02 pm] |
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| |  good | ] |
| [ | Current means of escape |
| | Don't Stop Till You Get Enough_|_Michael Jackson | ] |
wow...this is such an interesting feeling...me...with a hangover....i thought for sure i'd never drink again....i'd lost faith...haha...nehow...umm...today is Sat...let's back it up to thursday night....
umm...i don't remember what i did that day...class i know...but that's it...thursday night i was down in sarah's room...and we decided we wanted to drink...so we came up here and got the jack i had hidden in my room..........i mean....there was never ANY alcohol in my room.....EVER (that's for sam's benefit...and mine...don't kick me out!! *worried face*)....neway....got that and we were drinking and hangin out...playin spades...it was mucho fun...man.....i feel so like.....not good typing all this out......damn....i hate having my friends be the law....dammit sam and megan! ok...weeeellll....i guess i'm gonna keep typing...and just hope either you don't see it...or you don't care....i spent alot of that time in jenny's room too...she made me a bunch of CDs...cuz she's amazing...whoo...haha...we gotta get me all prepared for ATL...cuz even tho i'm all about some fall out boy....i only know a couple songs each from starting line and motion city soundtrack...and they will be there too....sooo...yeah...
so neway...that was thursday...and then friday i skipped my biology class (8 am)...but i went to organic chem and physics....it wasn't so bad...afterward we went to fresh food to eat (as always...i swear we live there...)...and then ummm...came home...took a short nap...got up...took sarah to work at 4:30...she was late....but it was absolutely not my fault...we left at like 4....just to get to chili's...and we sat in traffic for 45 minutes!!! i was like what the hell...i still don't know what caused it....i came home after that and straightened my hair...chilled out...and then went back to get sarah at like 8:30....we came back here and got ready to go out....we were supposed to go to this guy's party....but it had gotten busted when we got there....picture this if you will....a couple dozen college students....3 cops....and a full keg bein slowly emptied in the parking lot.....it was....sooo sad....haha...
So we left there (me, sarah, jenny, and charlie...this guy from NC...pretty effin cool dude)...and it was about...11:30 or so? so we decided we would go up to Jalapeno's on the strip...and that everyone else would join us later when the cops let 'em leave....
We stopped by the gas station because Charlie wanted to get some alcohol....so he bought a case of corona's for him and bacardi silver (watermelon) for us....it wasn't that good to be honest....haha....so we drove out to Jalapeno's but it was pretty empty...so we went to go check out the venue...decided not to go there....b/c you couldn't come back in w/o paying again...and we knew we didn't wanna stay there all night...so we went back to riverside to get me and sarah's IDs and to get the rest of the jack (see sam...i wasn't lying...there really isn't any alcohol in my room it's gone)...then after drinkin in the car (jenny wasn't drinkin...and she was the DD so no worries kids)...charlie decides to go to the package store and gets us....dun dun dun....Bacardi Superior...MY liquor....hahah that's my shit...soo...to state the obvious...i got fucked...had a lot of fun...danced with a shit load of people at Jalapeno's...(oh yeah...forgot to mention that we went back after the store cuz everyone was there then...)...it was great....i made a bunch of drunken dials...it was fun...and then we went to taco bell...cuz they were all hungry...i didn't want anything....which was good because sarah and charlie were being so loud and complicated that they refused to serve us...somethin about only two orders per vehicle? and we had three? i'm not sure...i was on the phone....hahaha....but yeah it was a lot of fun...and i was so happy that i'd finally be able to get out and party...it was great...
now tho...i'm gonna call sarah...make sure her ass is awake...and then shower...so i can take her to work...
i think perhaps today should be dedicated to cleaning my room and doing homework...
leave 'em...=) |
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| S is for save it....T is for take it slow...O is for oh no...P is for please, please don't GO! |
[Sep. 15th, 2005|04:16 pm] |
| [ | Though no one can see |
| |  annoyed | ] |
| [ | Current means of escape |
| | The Love you Save_|_Jackson5 | ] |
i haven't been to a party since i've been back in tuscaloosa....and it SUCKS...i hate it!!! when was the last time i got drunk?? ummm...how bout....MAY....yes.....effin' MAY....save me...
on another note...i'm goin to make a conscious (sp) effort to update more often....i used to update like....almost every day...even several times a day....but....i haven't been lately....so....i'm gonna try....really...haha...would you guys like that?
( game day pics...good times...good times... ) |
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| Katrina |
[Sep. 3rd, 2005|04:17 am] |
| [ | Tags | | | katrina | ] |
| [ | Though no one can see |
| | touched | ] |
| [ | Current means of escape |
| | All Falls Down_|_Kanye | ] |
Alright guys...so i'm sure by now you're all just a WEE bit tired of hearing about hurricane katrina and all the damage she's done....BUT....i have something to say about it and i really think you should listen. Now for those who know me well...i'm not the kind of person who tends to care about things like this....not because i'm coldhearted or blind....i just...always found it hard to empathize with people in crisis...b/c i can't see it close up...but this time is different...this time i have friends who live in areas hit hard by Katrina....people i care about who have been directly affected by the storm...this time...my university...my home...is now home to over 500 evacuees....these people are LIVING in our rec center....in our gym...because they have no home to go back to...and for those who do have a house that withstood the storm...the only thing that's waiting for them back home is chaos and desolation...it's ridiculous...and it makes me so sad...ellie and i went out there yesterday afternoon to volunteer...and we were actually turned away because they had SO many volunteers for that day already....and i was just...amazed...i was completely impressed with my fellow students...but i also couldn't help but feel guilty when i looked around at all those faces...and realized that when i left there...it was to go back to my room...with my tv...laptop...air conditioning...cell phone...ipod...all of my material possessions...and i just felt so lucky that i wasn't having to go through what they were....
if you've gotten this far in my entry...mucho kudos to you...and i won't keep you much longer....the last thing i want to offer to you is this link to the American Red Cross donations page...
https://www.redcross.org/donate/donation-form.asp
i know it always seems so stupid when people say "a little goes a long way" but it's true...i know my journal isn't the most popular one around....but...let's just say 20 people read this entry....(stretching it i know)....and let's say that every one can give just 5 bucks...a value meal at McDonalds....100 bucks...right there...that's roughly 15 cases of water from Sam's Club....c'mon...do you see were i'm goin here....i gave ten bucks...and i know it's not alot...but...i still feel good giving it...cuz i'm not rich...in fact...i've still got so much stuff to finish payin off for this semester of college...and i have no job....but i figured...i'm gonna blow the money somewhere....i know i am...movies...out to eat...w/e....why not "blow" it HERE?
so anyway...just think about it...and i would really appreciate it if you would leave me a comment...just to let me know you read it...even if you didn't click...it would make ME feel good to think that i've reached someone...
that would be our gym...their new home...can you imagine? i can't.... |
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[Aug. 1st, 2005|04:29 am] |
| [ | Tags | | | movie language | ] |
| [ | Though no one can see |
| |  laughin my ass off | ] |
| [ | Current means of escape |
| | Wonderwall_|_Oasis | ] |
okay...so let me just say first off...that i'm making this a public entry....because it's effin hilarious...you must read...and you must comment...or else my heart might just break....oh yeah...it's that crucial..
soo...it's 4:30 in the morning...i have to be up in four hours to go to class...but i'm not really that tired...so here i sit...i swear...my sleep schedule is like....almost completely reversed...when i have class i'll get up at like 8:30 or 9...go to class...i'm back here by one...and then i'll usually go back to sleep...till anywhere from five to eight...and then i'll get up and i won't go to bed again till like 3 or 4...sometimes later....bah...and on the weekends it's even worse...cuz i'll sleep till like...four in the afternoon...and then not go to bed till 3 or 4 again....bah...i need to get a grip on this...
Nehow...this weekend was fairly boring...didn't have class friday...so i slept till like...3...and then laid around the apt all day....doin nothin....saturday night i went out to bham...we went to jim and nicks...and no sooner did we get our drinks than the fire alarms started goin off...there was a fire in the kitchen...so we had to leave...from there we went to the grill...where i paid $11.30 for a hamburger and some fries...i was like....the fuck...and to make things worse...when i went over my bill (cuz 11.30 just seemed like way too much)...i realized that the effin waiter had added in the gratuity already...and at almost 25%! and the heifer was sooo not worthy of that much...he was slow...and sloppy...gah...i was just like....so frustrated...after we ate we went over to the house of one of ellie and jaron's friends and we ate cake (jaron's bday) and drank some...it was alright i s'pose...better than bein at home...but like...i didn't know anyone other than ellie and jaron...and they were all like...reminiscing about HS shit...so i was like....hum dee dum...
Today was another unproductive day...i slept till 3...fiddled on the computer till like...5....and then preceeded to watch tv all day....very very boring...HOWEVER...things DID pick up later when i got to talk to Josh...we had the most RIDICULOUS conversation in the world...which i of COURSE am goin to share with you....after i lay down a lil background info...haha
so me and josh were talkin...and he started throwin out lyrics from songs...and i would respond to them...with other song lyrics....so we did that for a min...and then he decides he wants to do it again...but with movies...so i follow his lead...and the rest...is....well...i'll let you see for yourselves...
( part one )
( part two )
( director's cut )
C'MON!!! YOU KNOW YOU'RE LAUGHING!!! you've gotta be laughin....HAHAHAHAHA...i'm laughin...and i was there for that shit....whew *wipes tears from eyes*....alright...now go on...you know you wanna comment...if for nothin else than to tell me what losers we are...hahahah...DO IT...and go forth...tell your friends...let them all experience the hilarity that is....uhhh....this...
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wow....i really thought you guys would find this as funny as i did...hmmm...maybe i was just too easily amused due to the time of mornin it was.....*sigh* |
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| FRIENDS ONLY |
[Nov. 26th, 2004|04:38 pm] |
Sorry guys...never wanted to have to do this...but...i've got an infiltration problem...it never bothered me before...but..it does now...newho...comment to be added...tho i'm sure the only ppl that read my journal are already friends....even so...just comment neway...it'll make me feel...uhhh...special? |
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[Sep. 30th, 2004|08:59 pm] |
| [ | Though no one can see |
| | infuriated | ] |
| [ | Current means of escape |
| | NMBC soundtrack | ] |
I'M GOING TO FUCKING SCREAM!!!!!!!!!!!!! |
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| Please just don't play with me... |
[Sep. 29th, 2004|11:47 pm] |
| [ | Though no one can see |
| | dorky | ] |
| [ | Current means of escape |
| | Drive Away_|_All-American Rejects | ] |
hmm...i was thinkin about stoppin this whole livejournal thing....cuz like...no one really reads it...and like...the only person that i KNEW always read it...doesn't get online nemore....(he's too cool for that now...) so nehow...i was thinkin about not doin it nemore...and i realized...that i'd really miss it...i know it sounds stupid....but i always feel so much better after posting...even if i'm still sad....or upset...happy....w/e...it's like...it makes it a wee bit easier to know that i'm not hiding it...that someone could potentially read it...and feel sorry for me....or happy for me...or dare i say it???? jealous of me....haha yeah right...ne who...the whole point of this...is that the 3-4 ppl that glance at my journal from time to time can relax...i'm not goin newhere.....lol....love!!! Ness
*i wish i could drive away to the sunset....back to the day that we first met....only believe the things i wrote....and put it in a note yeah....cross my t's and dot my i's...better say hello....don't you dare say goodbye...i'll write sincerely yours and sign my name....P.S. i love you...forever and TODAY...* |
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[Sep. 29th, 2004|11:58 am] |
| [ | Though no one can see |
| | bitchy | ] |
| [ | Current means of escape |
| | Running Away_|_Hoobastank | ] |
I'm in one of those moods again....where i'm pissed at the world...where i'm jealous of everyone else....b/c i'm just oh so sure that they have it better than i do...i'm such a dramatic...i admit it...
Question...since when has it become the standard to be nosy...and pry into my nonexistent (sp) love-life?? i swear to god it's the new fuckin trend nowadays for people to try and tell me what it is that i'm doin wrong...b/c we all know that it's all my fuckin fault that i can't find a decent guy who wants to love me for who i am...it has nothin to do with the extreme lack of "decent guys" in the world...as it seems...the reason i haven't dated is NOT b/c i'm fat and ugly...tho i'm sure that's part of it....oh no....it's b/c i haven't "TRIED HARD ENOUGH" it's b/c i'm "TOO PICKY" it's b/c "I WAITED UNTIL I WAS GOOD FRIENDS WITH HIM" it's b/c i don't "SHOW MY INTEREST" and the list goes on...i mean i swear i just don't understand what these ppl are tryin to tell me...i mean...one minute their sayin...oh my gosh Ness...you are totally pretty and you have an awesome personality...you're funny, you're smart....blah blah blah...BUT...you'll never get a guy b/c you expect too much from him (that's the picky part i guess) i mean i'm so sorry that i have a few standards...but since when has it become a bad thing to want someone who is smart, funny, and blah blah blah...it's not like i've got a line of guys that want to be with me...and i keep turnin them away....cuz they don't fit my "perfect guy" mold....i mean really...if you take a look at the guys that i've liked...none of them are perfect...or even close...i just think it's really shitty that i'm a professional single...and ppl have to sit there and blame me for it...i don't mind talkin to you guys...i really don't....but i mean damn....give me some kinda credit here....i mean...i'm not mad at neone...i'm just....irritated...
THIS IS FROM ME TO YOU...YOU HURT ME ONCE...I HURT YOU TOO...WE FORGIVE....WE DON'T FORGET....WE MOVE ALONG...A LIFE FULL OF REGRET.....
"Running Away"
I don't want you to give it all up
And leave your own life collecting dust
And I don't want you to feel sorry for me
You never gave us a chance to be
And I don't need you to be by my side
To tell me that everything's alright
I just wanted you to tell me the truth
You know I'd do that for you
So why are you running away?
So why are you running away?
Cause I did enough to show you that I
Was willing to give and sacrifice
And I was the one who was lifting you up
When you thought your life had had enough
And when I get close, you turn away
There's nothing that I can do or say
So now I need you to tell me the truth
You know I'd do that for you
So why are you running away?
Why are you running away?
Is it me, is it you
Nothing that I can do
To make you change your mind
Is it me, is it you
Nothing that I can do
Is it a waste of time?
Is it me, is it you
Nothing that I can do
To make you change your mind
So why are you running away?
Why are you running away?
...What is it I've got to say...
So why are you running away?
...To make you admit you're afraid...
Why are you running away? |
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[Sep. 29th, 2004|12:48 am] |
| [ | Though no one can see |
| | sleepy | ] |
| [ | Current means of escape |
| | Hero_|_Mariah Carey | ] |
yeah so i'm sittin here...chillin with the girls....makin signs for marion...yes...indeed...cuz marion rocks...and her theta sisters suck ass....so screw them...they didn't want me in their sorority neway...lol....yeah so i'm sittin here....mad...i was hopin georgie or josh would call me tonight...buuut no such luck...oh well...guess i'll just sit here and cry....no...not really...but...i could...if i had to....hmmm....w/e.....so yeah...i'm tired now...got a chem quiz in the mornin...thought i was gonna go to bed early....till the decorating committee decided to set-up shop in my room....so now it's almost one...and guess who ISN'T asleep....haha it's alright tho...i don't mind...goodnight my loves...you all rock... |
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[Sep. 28th, 2004|02:57 pm] |
| [ | Though no one can see |
| | excited | ] |
| [ | Current means of escape |
| | Vermilion, Pt. 2_|_Slipknot | ] |
( Pics from home and the dorm )
ENJOY!!! BTW there are quite a few pics...so if ur puter is slow...well...don't get mad at ME...LOL love you!!! leave me some comments!! holy damn...it's not that hard.... |
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